Seemed So Out of Context
This post is brought to you by staying up past my bed time, listening to the Postal Service, and the very sad truth that I didn't want to get to a year long gap between posts (just under the wire!).
I am not at all the same person I was when I stopped blogging. I've been through panic attacks and graduation. I've spent several months just sitting in my room in front of a computer and I've finally worked my butt off in the real world. I'm still the exact same nerd, but I'm a more socially acceptable one. I get up in the morning, brush my teeth and go to work where I answer phones and joke with my colleagues and generally find myself feeling more and more comfortable away from the the constant schooling that was my safety blanket. At this point in my life I can say with slight wonder that I am actually supporting myself. I pay for my bills and my extras and I finally have health insurance again, which I'm happier about that having extra money.
So what am I doing here? I'm really not sure, but I feel like if I'm paying for it I should be making it useful. It might be horribly personal or I might post weird pictures of my cats.
Wonder/Wander
A good library will never be too neat, or too dusty, because somebody will always be in it, taking books off the shelves and staying up late reading them. -Lemony Snicket
I had a nice long talk with my dad today. It seemed appropriate for my birthday to be talking about my future. So far all I have done is school, well and that one month working at the nursing home but we don't talk about that. When I was in high school my parents, mostly my dad, didn't want me to have to work. My dad worked in his father's grocery store as long as he can remember and my mother remembers her high school days working in the hospitial where her mother was a nurse and, for some reason that I only vaguely understand yet, the didn't want that for me. So I went to college and still didn't work.
But now things are a little different, I graduate in December and I keep talking about looking for work but I've really made no motion to do so and then my dad asked if I would be coming home for Christmas. Perfect excuse, so the job path is deverted until the new year.
I think he may have wondered about me though because he asked me what I wanted to do. I know that he knows that I know I don't want to work retail for the rest of my life. I have flirted with many jobs ideals, all of them involving something more than BA. Today my dad asked me about my most recent one, library science, and I was off and running. I told him all about the programs that I've looked into, what they require, why I like UW overall, and where I want to end up with the career.
"Wow, you've really researched this," he said.
And that's when it hit me, I have really researched this. I have never looked at a job and looked at schools and made decisions and visualized how I want to further those goals and what career path I would love forever. So even if finding a job proves difficult in the next few months, I've got a goal and the supportive parents who don't think I'm at all weird for wanting to become a librarian.
For anyone who cares, I want to become an archivist eventually and I would love to work with digital collections specifically. Although I keep visualizing myself as that angry public librarian...
I’m Losing My Touch
Did I mention I'm working in a IT support center for the Oregon Department of Justice? No, well you wouldn't think I worked for them after what I just spent a half an hour doing.
I decided to mess around with Leaena.com, maybe look at a different layout, change around how I post, maybe even tell ya'll something, but when I arrived at the site, I was greeted with a "error establishing a database connection" page. Gah, was my first thought, followed by a "that's new". So I basically googled like a chicken with their head cut off before I thought to look around in my config files, which actually didn't do much, but then I created a test blog, which worked. Sooo I looked up my databases and realized that the user I connect to the database for this weblog had mysteriously been removed from the database. Reestablish the user, reestablish the connection.
I am the dumb. I'll post pictures of knitting and spinning tomorrow when I'm less stressed.
On the Topic of Fans That Don’t Fit
Seriously it is far too hot in Eugene for my (or my cat's) sake. Also, the two bedroom apartment that I've shared with the roommate for two years has horrible windows that don't fit my window fan. Currently the fan is jammed so awkwardly into the open window that I'm afraid that it will leap out in the middle of the night and land on my head while I sleep.
Fortunately I'm heading up to Salem at the end of next week were I'll be living with my aunt and uncle (who have air-conditioning) and taking a very short term job/volunteer position (I don't know whether I'm getting paid or not yet, but probably not) hooking up computers and answering phones at an office helpdesk. Yay the computer job I never expected to have. I'm starting to wonder if it's going to make me want to go back into Computer Science, although I can use some of the same skills for my Information Science graduate program.
Besides the heat I'm currently a week away from being one class away from graduating and being able to flee Eugene for Seattle. I'm looking forward to Seattle. The goal is to get residency there so I can work on my graduate program at UW in a couple of years. Sadly the last class I have to take is in the fall, so I'm cutting it close as to actually being a 2008 college graduate.
And seriously, ugh, this heat mixed with the lack of much to do in Eugene right now as it's summer and I'm only taking one class is starting to make me stir-crazy.
Even My Hair Hurts
So I've managed to actually use a completely home-grown layout for Wordpress. It's not the best but it looks a lot like home in the summer and that seems peaceful enough to me to make me keep it.
The side links are mostly just to give a better idea of all the random I do. I'm setting up a blog within this blog to help me start to actually post the snippets of writing that I never find spaces for. If you bothered to check /drama and /engineer have been deleted. Engi will live on, I'm not so sure about Rain.
My goal for the next post (hopefully tomorrow) is to include less maintance rambling.
Now With More Toxic… ness….
Whoooo. New blog and nothing to say. I'll just say I'm going to use this as a notebook of sorts. Hopefully I can get it all in sync with my Ravelry and Flickr stuffs. I also want to us it to just write random things that I keep wanting to write fiction wise. Rain (leaena.com/drama) and Engi (leaena.com/engineer) are still hibernating, but up. I have notes and snippets for both but I think both need a bit of an overhaul.
I'll leave you with this: Nickel Creek - Toxic (on Youtube). Indeed, that Toxic song. Somehow a guitar, a violin, and a mandolin make it all okay. Also, I lurve Nickel Creek, especially Speak (also on Youtube).
And did you know that there's website devoted to telling you who's covered what songs? Yeah, me either. Second Hand Songs helped me quite a bit.
ALSO the layout is not finished. And yes, I'm using some elements from an older layout. And yes I do realize there are no lions and what the hell happened to the lion layouts? Who knows. It's two in the am.