Seemed So Out of Context
This post is brought to you by staying up past my bed time, listening to the Postal Service, and the very sad truth that I didn't want to get to a year long gap between posts (just under the wire!).
I am not at all the same person I was when I stopped blogging. I've been through panic attacks and graduation. I've spent several months just sitting in my room in front of a computer and I've finally worked my butt off in the real world. I'm still the exact same nerd, but I'm a more socially acceptable one. I get up in the morning, brush my teeth and go to work where I answer phones and joke with my colleagues and generally find myself feeling more and more comfortable away from the the constant schooling that was my safety blanket. At this point in my life I can say with slight wonder that I am actually supporting myself. I pay for my bills and my extras and I finally have health insurance again, which I'm happier about that having extra money.
So what am I doing here? I'm really not sure, but I feel like if I'm paying for it I should be making it useful. It might be horribly personal or I might post weird pictures of my cats.
Deja Vu
Side note: I can never remember where the accent goes in that word. Also I can never remember the correct button combination to get said accent to show up magically instead of having to be a cheater and copy-pasting from somewhere else.
So the whole lack of a database connection happened again. The only connection I can make is when I create a new database it decides to give the old heave-ho to one of my other database connections. I actually had to go in and create a brand new user for the database that this site runs off of. It is entirely to weird for my brain to handle tonight and I was majorly hyperventilating.
You see I hate having to contact people to fix my problems. They're my problems and I should be able to fix them. I feel annoyed when something I can't come up with a solution to a problem that I (even if it's just in my own mind) created. I think that was my main problem with the help desk I interned at. Do people seriously not have the presence of mind to try and solve their problems themselves?
How hard is it to check and see if your computer is actually plugged in? When did it become ok to just say something is wrong here and I sure as hell don't want to take the two seconds it might take to deal with it when I can call someone else and end up on hold for 5 minutes. Fine you don't 'get' computers. But do you get common sense? Seriously, you can get up in the morning, turn of your alarm clock, probably figure out how to turn on your tv, change the channel, maybe even get in a car and drive, but you can't be bothered to understand you computer? The one thing you use the most of at work? You could probably tell me more ways to create a macro then I would know what to do with, but you can't even think to restart the computer when things are being weird/you get a blue screen/your mouse isn't working. Please, it might not be the problem but at least it saves us from having to tell you to try it to rule out the easy solutions.
On the Topic of Fans That Don’t Fit
Seriously it is far too hot in Eugene for my (or my cat's) sake. Also, the two bedroom apartment that I've shared with the roommate for two years has horrible windows that don't fit my window fan. Currently the fan is jammed so awkwardly into the open window that I'm afraid that it will leap out in the middle of the night and land on my head while I sleep.
Fortunately I'm heading up to Salem at the end of next week were I'll be living with my aunt and uncle (who have air-conditioning) and taking a very short term job/volunteer position (I don't know whether I'm getting paid or not yet, but probably not) hooking up computers and answering phones at an office helpdesk. Yay the computer job I never expected to have. I'm starting to wonder if it's going to make me want to go back into Computer Science, although I can use some of the same skills for my Information Science graduate program.
Besides the heat I'm currently a week away from being one class away from graduating and being able to flee Eugene for Seattle. I'm looking forward to Seattle. The goal is to get residency there so I can work on my graduate program at UW in a couple of years. Sadly the last class I have to take is in the fall, so I'm cutting it close as to actually being a 2008 college graduate.
And seriously, ugh, this heat mixed with the lack of much to do in Eugene right now as it's summer and I'm only taking one class is starting to make me stir-crazy.